Feeling Blessed

Since my last post, I have felt such an overpowering flow of love, I cannot leave it up as the first thing people see.

First of all, that rant was made within a few hours of learning my decision had to be made.  Naturally, with sleep, prayer, and even the rant itself, everything looked a little better.  There were multiple calls made Thursday that helped me to grieve through the idea.  Two aunts that have each been there for me before stepped up again to give me a shoulder to cry on, advice, a listening ear, a shared tear.  I'm so grateful to them!  And several sisters from my ward have given support as well.  I suddenly find that I can't turn anywhere without an encouraging word, a smile, a scripture or saying that applies to me and lifts me up.  My mother, mother-in-law and sister have been so entirely there for me.  Aaron and his dad gave me a blessing that gave me such peace.

I'm not saying there won't be hard times ahead, in dealing with crohn's and a probable ileostemy.  I am saying that I know that no matter what happens with this, that I have an entire, very large, support system.  There are a dozen people offering to be of some assistance whenever I may need it - and that's before I've even had to ask home or visiting teachers!  I have a Heavenly Father who sees and understands this current crisis in my life.  I know He has been listening to my prayers.  I have felt His comforter and seen blessings even in my turmoil.  I'm so humbled by the love that's been expressed to me these last four days.

I know that a final decision is not here yet; our meeting with my doctor is the second week of May.  I still have to get tapered off of prednisone before a surgery can take place, so, at this point, surgery will be around the end of June or beginning of July.